MKR Prodigal Daughter-Christian Perspectives from a Prodigal

  • Tragedy Strikes

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    When I was 21 years old my brother committed suicide, because the girl he had asked to marry him turned him down. There wasn’t much warning when he did it. There was about a week he was really suicidal and my parents didn’t tell me what was going on until the day before it happened. I wish they would have told me sooner maybe I could have talked to him. We were not getting along well then, so I didn’t say anything. But one thing I did do was pray.

    I had a feeling he was going to do something he was going to take his life, so I prayed and prayed and prayed. I prayed every prayer I could find in my grandma’s New Marian Missal which was an old Catholic daily mass book from the 1950s. I prayed all day and all night until 11 p.m. then I went to bed. I wasn’t praying that he wouldn’t take his life, I prayed for his soul. I feel guilty because I should have prayed that he wouldn’t take his life.

    That night in the middle of the night I awoke to Jesus speaking to me. He said to me, “I prayed your brother would be filled with the Holy Spirit.” After hearing that I knew my brother was dead and he was in heaven.

    The next morning when the policeman came to the door, I knew why he was there. My parents were so upset, but I didn’t cry. I knew my brother was in heaven because when Jesus prays, He prays God’s will.

    I don’t know what my brothers last words to God were, but I think he asked to be forgiven and that is all it takes. God is very merciful, and He forgives when you ask. Ask Him. He can change your life if you reach out to Him. Jesus loves you so much He willingly sacrificed himself. He didn’t run away from what he knew was going to happen to him. He died for you and me so we can be right with God. Talk to Jesus. He is waiting to hear from you.

  • When I Think of You (A Poem)

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    When I think of You
    I see a gentleness
    a peacefulness
    quiet kind of strength

    I see the King of kings
    a roaring lion
    Lord of all creation
    Blessing from above

    I see love in You
    whether Your eyes
    be Green or Blue
    it is love I see in you

    When I think of you
    I see myself as a child
    someone frail and small
    and You standing strong and tall.

  • The Baggage of Sin (a poem)

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    I don't deserve Him,
    with the sins I carry,
    When I feel hate and anger, 
    I hate the way I feel.
    It's a sin, and when I feel hate,
    to Jesus I must appeal,
    to be forgiven from the same old sins.
    Why can't I change?
    I ask myself over,
    and over again.
    Jesus said hate,
    is just like murder
    how will I ever make it, 
    to myself I wonder.
    So much hate, 
    such a senseless war.
    So many injustices
    in this cruel, cruel world.
    All the cruelty and insults,
    will they ever end?
    This isn't God's will,
    this isn't God's plan.



  • His Presence (a poem)

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    He radiates power,
    And when His presence enters a room,
    worry is something you just can't do.
    His presence brings peace,
    His presence brings love,
    His presence is tranquility.
    I want to feel His presence again,
    it's better than seeing a long, lost friend.
    When I feel His presence,
    I just want to praise.
    He is power,
    He is love,
    He is peace.
    That is my God,
    That is my Savior,
    That is my Prince of Peace.




  • Happy Easter! He is Risen!

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    Today is the most important day besides the birth of Jesus in Christianity. It is the day Jesus came back from the dead. He was resurrected and walked out of his grave and conquered death. By believing in Jesus, we no longer have to fear death. The devil is the author of death, and he is defeated by Jesus, because Jesus crushed the devil’s head the moment he was resurrected. The enemy’s time is limited and so is his power. He isn’t omnipresent like God. He can’t be everywhere at once. The name of Jesus Christ conquers evil. He is powerful. He created us and He loves each and every one of us, and even when we mess up, He still forgives us.

  • It’s Good Friday

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    While I was young and going to the Catholic church with my parents I dreaded going to the Good Friday service. I hated saying “Crucify him! Crucify Him!” with the congregation during the service because I felt bad saying it and didn’t like the fact that Jesus was crucified. I also was not a fan of standing in line, and then when it was my turn, kissing the feet of Jesus on a crucifix attached to a pole. Thinking back, I wonder how many people got sick after going to Good Friday mass. After people would kiss the crucifix, the priest would wipe feet of Jesus with a cloth. It definitely wasn’t sanitary, but that was a long time ago. They no longer kiss the feet of Jesus on the cross.

    I understand now why Jesus had to die, and I appreciate Good Friday and the sacrifice Jesus made. He willingly died for each and every one of us so we can have a relationship with God the Father. He resurrected from the dead and is alive today.

  • It isn’t just Catholic’s who pray to saints

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    It isn’t only the Catholic church that prays to saints. The Greek Orthodox church, Coptic Chistian church in Egypt, the Syrian Christian Church, Armenian church and the Ethiopian church pray to the saints. All those churches believe that saints in heaven can pray for them. which is asking for saints to pray for them and praying with them

    Martin Luther had prayed to the saints but then changed his mind. John Calvin who started the Calvinism movement was against praying to saints. He believed in predestination which I do NOT believe in. I don’t believe God predestines some people to go to heaven and some people to go to hell. If that is the case, how to you explain free will. God wants all His children to go to heaven, and He gives all of us that chance.

    Some modern mainstream Evangelical protestant churches talk about how the Catholic Church is leading people astray. And they say that praying to the dead is a sin. The reason why they think Catholics and other denominations are sinning is because King Saul consulted a witch and asked her to contact the dead to know the future. And that is NOT what Catholic’s or any other denominations that aren’t protestant who ask saints to pray for them are doing.

  • The War in Iran

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    America attacking Iran with Israel is something a lot of people in America are not happy about, including myself. I think it’s reckless. Are America and Israel going to destroy Iran like Israel has destroyed Gaza?

    Trump lied when he said no new wars, prices would come down, and he would bring people together when he was campaigning for president. None of those things happened. He refuses to help Ukraine, and I am not sure why. Trump decided to attack Iran, and I still don’t know why. First, he said Iran would have a nuclear weapon in two weeks, then he said it was for regime change, and then he said it was because he wanted to bring peace to the Middle East. I really don’t think he understands what he is doing.

    From what I have heard, the US military is trying to make things really bad in order to make Jesus come back in the ” rapture.” They are trying to bring on Armageddon. And that is exactly what Evangelical extremists want. They want the rapture to happen. They think Jesus is going to come back three times not twice. They think he will come back and take all Christian’s up to heaven for three and a half years and let all other the people (including a lot of Christian’s) suffer. I used to believe that while I was an evangelical. While growing up catholic, being a practicing Catholic in my twenties and later on in life, the priests didn’t talk about it. And Lutheran church doesn’t talk about the rapture either. Jesus does not come to earth three times, only twice. First at birth, and then at the final judgement, but not in-between. That rapture wasn’t even thought up until the late 1800s by a woman in a protestant Christian cult in Scotland who had been in an insane asylum once. Charles Darby took the idea from her and was made famous from because of it.

    I know Iran has done a lot of terrible things over the years, I am well aware of that. I just don’t want this war to turn into World War 3 or some never-ending war. It has had a ripple effect on neighboring countries of Iran and Iran is bombing them now and that is not good.

    I just wish all the bombing would stop. People could die from hunger and thirst if this war doesn’t end. 100 million people who live near Iran are fed from the food that comes through the Strait of Hormuz. Israel bombed a desalination plant in Iran. Desalination is the process which turns salt in sea or ocean water into drinking water by taking the salt out of the water. And now trump is threatening to bomb more of those plants. The tankers that carry oil and natural gas are not getting through the strait of Hormuz. The strait of Hormuz supplies oil and natural gas to countries in Asia, and the people that live there are already starting to suffer.

    Americans will suffer too. India is the world’s largest producer of generic drugs and India’s natural gas, and oil come from the strait of Hormuz. Which means that a fuel shortage would affect the electricity that is used to make generic drugs, which will affect Americans if there are generic drug shortages.

    I want this war to stop.

  • Another Year

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    Another year just went by for me. My birthday was recently and the people in my life who make the day special, make it better. More than once, I have heard different pastors say ask God for something on your birthday, so today I asked God to make me be able to hear Him better and hear his voice. I rarely hear the still small voice of God, but when I have, it’s unmistakable. Once you hear that voice you will never forget it. I haven’t heard it with my ears but within my spirit. Some people have heard God’s voice out loud, usually in a situation that immediately needs their attention, like if they are in danger.

    One year on my birthday, I asked Jesus to let me see what He looks like. I was working in 1989 and one of my co-workers gave me a photo someone in her church had given to her. A nun had taken a photo from an airplane window when it was storming. The photo showed dark clouds, lightening, and Jesus in the clouds and I was so happy to get it.

    Another year I asked God to see Michael the Archangel on my birthday in March of 1987. One morning in December after taking a shower I was about to walk up the stairs to get ready for work and I turned the light on and looked up. All of the sudden all I could see was light, then I looked down then up again then everything looked normal again. All day long I wondered why I saw that light, and I couldn’t figure it out. It reminded me of Jacob seeing a heavenly staircase and angels going up and down on it with the Lord at the top of the stairs. Not long after seeing that light, I started to feel the peace that only comes from God. It was like God had a bucket filled with liquid peace that he poured on the top of my head, and it would wash over my body. I was twenty-two years old then and I still didn’t have a driver’s license because driving made me very anxious. Long story short, because God gave me His peace during the next four months, I was able to finally get my driver’s license in March of 1988.

    When your birthday rolls around try asking God for something that will glorify him and help you in your spiritual life. I am hopeful I will hear God’s voice better this year.

  • The Gift (a poem)

    One day closer,
    to those streets of gold.
    Days fly by,
    and the weather has gotten cold,

    A light in the sky,
    all of heaven sang
    shepherds didn't need
    to wonder why

    A miracle of 
    a virgin birth
    the presence of God
    here on earth.

    God the Father,
    sent down His Son,
    so that we 
    could all be one

    A gift
    that Mary treasured,
    a gift
    that's without measure.

    Jesus will walk with you
    Jesus will walk with me
    and together we will walk
    right into eternity.